Slow Burn

It begins with a dark glowing ember

Something black burning its way out of me

Searing the flesh

Pain is the only thing I feel

Scars all I see

Oh no the fires burning my insides again

What can I do to silence my desire tonight

Flames consuming reason

Leaving only ashes left

You will catch me regretting my decision

I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear

I can't just close my eyes

I know that

It's killing me

And it’s poisoning the best in me

What I see I don’t want to believe

So let me tell you more

About the lies I lead

This is how I’ve chosen to douse the flames

Broken teeth replace blackout memories

Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone

I know its over but I can’t go home tonight

But after this I feel as empty as before

Feel the pain and yet I’m still begging for more

Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought

My life’s a mess and I cant find a way to fix it

I know that

It's killing me

And it’s poisoning the best in me

What I see I don’t want to believe

So let me tell you more

About the lies I lead

Calling calling out

The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self doubt

Crawling crawling out

My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down.

It’s only as dark as you make it

I know that

It's killing me

And it’s poisoning the best in me

What I see I don’t want to believe

So let me tell you more

About the lies I lead