Void In My Life

When I look back at my life, I realize-realize something ain't right

I'm missing you Lord, in my life make it right

I got something to decide, just wanna make-wanna make everything right

Cause there's a huge void, a huge void in my life make it right

I'm staring up at the Pope, it soak it up while he spoke it

Mesmerized and repeated, like he the author that wrote it

The broads are the ones I love, just don't wanna be the corporate

So waiting for death to approach this, take the time to say no sis

I don't hate ya, for having these little seeds

At 17, best believe they're a beautiful breeze

Of fresh air when their's nothing else, I usually need

Just a smile look at em now, hoping you just believe

And my broad been in place forever, I'm gone but I'm chasing cheddar

Been gone could of kept it going, with a poem or a basic letter

But naw I just hate to tell her, try hard but I didn't let her

The groupies get at your boy, but you're my Cinderella

Look girl we can make it better, but there's a gift and a curse

While you healing a nigga feelings, your's are usually hurt

It ain't amount of cash on Earth, to match what you really worth

Know your turf has been the church, that's where you put in work

And you put in overtime, because you know the sign

And most danger that I've been lately, rap is mo' than rhymes

But you still hold me down, I'ma do way mo' this time

Got some time that I need to manage, girl you know that's right

And that's speaken like a true deacon, cause even to see you sleeping

That comfortabally ain't enough for me, anything that you needing

I'll cease anything that squeaks, and cease any sink that leaks

Ain't nothing gon interrupt, your sleep deep into them sheets and peep

When I look back at my life, I realize-realize something ain't right

I'm missing you Lord, in my life make it right

I got something to decide, just wanna make-wanna make everything right

Cause there's a huge void, a huge void in my life make it right

How your father call the police, have your mama put in the jail

When the arguments always started, and ended up in a cell

Hard to it was the thought of this, ring that you use to wear

As I darted out the apartment, and pawned it to get the bail

Argument after argument, drama wasn't hitting well

Target it ain't no harm in it, smart so I didn't tell

God that it was the hardest, yeah life was a living hell

Spent part of it steady dodging it, charging off in the trails

Father say he a Muslim, your mama say she a Christian

The Bible or the Koran, which one would you be picking

The cards are in your palm, ain't really no use in tripping

Be true to the one you choose, ain't really no use in switching

Yeah they gon have to be mad at us, choice is something I had to trust

Standing up when I had enough, for my blessings not adding up

Take too many things for granted, right after that metal gedal bust

Somebody's life is missing, that's when the spirit grabbing us

When I look back at my life, I realize-realize something ain't right

I'm missing you Lord, in my life make it right

I got something to decide, just wanna make-wanna make everything right

Cause there's a huge void, a huge void in my life make it right

A religion is what you missing, someone tell me how can it

Make people panic, mention God and all the weak people vanish

Take God your woman and your family, even your own life for granted

Until you slanted on the planet, with your face in the granite

And I won't have it, I don't wanna see my coaching divided

So I decided to remind it, there's a choice and provide it

So put your ego to the side, soon as you standing beside it

Raise your right hand, and let the spirit know it's invited

Don't need to fight it, I just wanna make it right 'fore they bury me

Cause the truth is like therapy, plus my conscience is tearing me

Into pieces as deadly was dealt, was not even fair to me

To the soldiers that passed in the game, we missing you terribly

Thank my family especially, in my mind like telepathy

Staying humble's the recipe, keep my faith and he blessing me

I use the energy left in me, to make sure they respecting me

Walk the steps of my destiny, like I know he protecting me

I'm a leader, believe the people won't get to see less of me

No they won't see the death of me, or no police arresting me

I live life so successfully, and just show em the best of me

On another level mentally, this position was meant for me

When I look back at my life, I realize-realize something ain't right

I'm missing you Lord, in my life make it right

I got something to decide, just wanna make-wanna make everything right

Cause there's a huge void, a huge void in my life make it right

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