Paradox Lost

In the midst of my last attack

Panic drags me into the black

Weak and frail I leave myself behind

In the darkness I am reborn

Full of queries but all forlorn

This new life will destroy my mind

Passion or possession?

I can't decide

Engulfed by my life's obsession

In questions I will hide

Debating the solutions

Lost and perplexed

I'm stumbling through the confusion

Quandaries so complex

Battle in my head

I look for answers but no one's there to guide me

Battered by the dread

That all my worries will remain inside me

Drowned in desperation

Border is crossed

Heading towards obliteration

In the paradox I am lost

Sanity deteriorates

Broken and torn

Madness rapidly propagates

Waiting to unleash the storm

Battle in my head

I look for answers but no one's there to guide me

Battered by the dread

That all my worries will remain inside me

I'm lost in the paradox

Quandaries so unorthodox

Messing with my head, making me loose my mind

So lost in the paradox

Locked up inside the box

There's a battle in my head, and I'm really loosing my mind...

I'm slowly turning inside out

As I question what it's all about

The desperation feeds on me

A ravenous cancer, tearing me apart

Paroxysmal, evil death

Lost in mind, lack of breath

Paradoxical way to die

So confused, I close my eyes