Alone

Whilst I thought I was climbing

I found myself descending

Having lost my way let me go up

Having lost my way let me go down

I have no other work to do

It would have been better

no to be the mother

It's sorrowful when a son goes away

let alone and when he dies

I watched quietly

when the grave was being dug

knowing that he won't come back

and I won't be here for much longer

Even if I become like a king

or like the wind

never never will death stay away

But when he called me from above

neither voice nor word to say yes

we just say quietly yes to him

It is a debt which must be paid

Here is our flesh

Take it from me

It seems to me

that I can't destroy it

Having spent the day with pain

Am I going to spend the night with pain?

This living to eat

is so tiring for me

I am feeling cold inside

Let me go on seeking fire

Even death is better

than this useless life

The mast of a ship - a nakedness

The leader of horse

sheds the female breast

He tramples down

the vast furnace

Godlike and piercing

Binding and bitter

and cleaving asunder

Breaking and mending

Abiding in a place

Tending over nothingness

Darkness tending onto corruption

Darkness tending unto corruption

Darkness tending unto corruption

Merchants are trembling

Dragged down unto horror

Terrible and (?)

The dust and the (?)

Sublime circumcision

Solitude and desolation

A goatherd unto lost

All destruction

Grinding to hold her

Withering and fading,

The weeping of horses

Flesh turn (?)

The mountains are cast out

Lions tremling with fury

Thy braking in my barenness

The destroyer of days

The silent lion -

we know him fury

The death of flesh

He moves with a creeping motion

They destroy by the sky

flame of their smoky breath

The painbringers

They shried with a

long

drawn

cry