Sacrilegium

Sacrilegium:

Prpfanatio omnium quae deo

Vel sanctis propositis consecrantur

For long endless millions of instants

I drank at the goblet of illusion

Tilling tumours and follies

Desperately wandering

Through the dark tunnels

Of the bone box

Then, submitting

I chose to drown

In the ashes of my dreams

When purity is raped

Three days are not enough

To resurrect:

Everywhere

Leprosy spreads out

The light of the eyes

Is extinguished

Thunders now shatter

The eardrums

The scream is:

"The plague be on you!"

The dust

I used to build

The impalpable reality

Of my nights

Brings me back

Along the paths

Where I scattered

Useless hopes

Believe!

Can I trust you?

No, please, don't!

Can I trust you?

Forever, really, forever!

Oaths engraved in the water...

Obey!

As a child, or an idiot

Who follows the laws

Of the XXXX others?

Quicksands have just one

Unrelenting goal

Bon voyage, mon amour...

Fight!

That invisible enemy

Nestled behind those

Gorgeous, false, sharp

Smiles

In order to conques the future: and destroy it!

I go back - once more - into the abyss of my nothing

You know

The dead have the virtue of looking like each other

It seems like yesterday

We were children

And playing at running

After each other;

You would often lock me

In the dark cellar

And I implored:

"Please open!"

I used to run trampling on

The little heads

- Cut off -

Spread ripe on the lawn

We had no mother

So we're taking turns

In being her

You were visiting my dreams

Leaving to snow

Through almost

Closed fingers

Glittering crystals

Of verginal illusions

Time seemed out brother

Until the deadly night

Twisted, I preserved you

- Jealously - Beside me

Gelid, adorned with

The damned cloths

Of the sudden

Silence...

... while

Dreamful...

... I offered you

A smile...

... in a suspended flash

The spirit...

... was plucked away

By the...

... sacrilege of fatal arms!

Forever!

Remember?

Forever!

I kept the secret

"Where is the bride?"

"Forsaken him!"

"Fleeing the deceived"

"Left him alone!"

Talk, talk

You fools!

Forever I wanted

Still, lifeless and empty

The shadow of you

To lie on

The bridal couch

Where you laughed

Astonished

Minding the tales

Bizarre and contorted

I told you every night

Prior to submitting

To the empire of the dark

Mors at suar cohortis ludus:

"Anathema, anathema tibi!"

Arcani vis et natura:

"Anathema, anathema tibi!"

They who know, do not speak!

They who talk, do not know!

"Maledictus! Maledictus!"

We are just sketches of men

Caught in a wicked vortex

Where tertium non datur

Between being god

Or being damned

But, after all

Isn't it true that

An inaudible suggestion

An ineffable remorse

A secret instinct

Reveal the impurity

Hidden in success

The vulgarity of victory

The filth nestling

In fortune:

Pure purity

Absolute catharsis

Is in misadventure

In tragedy

In one's ineluctable

Check mate

And when the lights dim

And falls slowly the curtain

I return to dance in a ring

With the skeleton man

And the bearded lady

The bird-boy and

The laughing dwarf;

Among dragons

And avenging angels

Winged maidens

And herds of blind men

Who bark

With open wide orbits

Taking me at last

To the world where

Uncertainty does not exist

In heaven. Or underground