The Downward Spiral

Mother Dear Mother

It's Cold Tonight

Like Every Other

Every Other Night

But I Never Feel

Feel It Anyway

I'm Gonna Need Something

Something Soon

I Can Feel It

Feel It Begin

But I Don't Know

How I'm Gonna Pay

It Must Be About

Mid December Right Now

And I Think I'm About

Seventeen

I'm Not Real Sure

How Old I Feel

I Lost My Thoughts

In Some Dream

Oh Mother I Don't

Know How

I Got Where I Am

But I'll Try To Explain Anyhow

See Gradually

You Get Sucked In

Into It

Without Ever Really

Realising

Just What's Happening

And That Is When

The Downward Spiral Begins

Anyway Back To How It All Started

It Started With Dope

Why Not After All It Was Just The Once, I Told Myself

I Didn't Even Like It Very Much

But The People I Was With All Did It

Then I Tried Speed

Why Not After All, It Was Just The Once I Told Myself

The Next Thing I Knew I Was Doing A Couple Of Grams A week

Then A Friend Introduced Me To Smack- Chasing The Dragon

Why Not After All It Was Just The Once I Told Myself

Why Not After All It Wasn't using A Needle

Then I Started Doing What I Said I'd Never Do

- You Guessed It Mother

I Remember

All The Marks It Left Up My Arm

Just Trying To Find My Vein

Sometimes It Would Hurt Hurt So Much

But I Kept On Going

Ignoring Ignoring The Pain

As I Sat

With Blood Pouring Down

My Nose And

Nose And Throat

I Lost Contact

Contact

Contact With The Real

Real Real Me

I Wasn't As Careful

As I Should Have Been

And Soon It Began To Show

I Started To Feel

Tired And Very Sick

And I Watched My Eyes

Eyes Turn Yellow

It Was Just About Then

That I Parted With Drugs

And Just Had A Drink Now And Then

But Even Before

I Was over Hep

I Had My Friend

In My Arm Again

I Met Up With A Girl A While Ago

She Was Living The Same Life

Lost In The Same Dream

We Shared A Room In The City

Though You Couldn't Really Call It Home

Well It Seemed As Though

Drugs just Destroyed Her Will To Live

She Always Had A Smile For Me Though

Even When She Was Filled With Pain

I Remember That Grey Day

She Lay Still On The Floor

Needle Still In Her Arm

Eyes Staring At The Wall

The Tears Didn't Come Right Then

I Don't Know If They Ever Came

But Something In Me Died Back Then And I Know

It'll Never Be The Same

It Seems Like Years Ago

But I think It Was Only Yesterday

The Picture's Still Locked In My Mind And I Know

It Will Always Stay It Will Always Stay

After Reading This

This To Myself

I Know I Know

You'll Be Filled With Pain

So Please Please

Keep My Memory

Close To Your Heart

And Your Love Love

Love For me The Same

Cause At This Stage

I Need Need Your

Friendship More Than Pity

Friendship

Friendship More Than Pity

Friendship

Friendship More Than Pity

Friendship

More Than More Than Pity

And Maybe Just Now

I Can Tell You The Reason

For All These Drugs

These Drugs I'm Taking

For Although I'm

So Scared Of Dying

I'm Terrified

Terrified Of Living