Constant Collapse

There is nothing here for me,

But I'm here for you,

So I will never leave.

And I'm starting to believe,

Every time you said you loved me,

You were just talking in your sleep.

And I said I would die for you

But that was before I knew

That it's all you wanted me to do

And time and time again,

I can tell you I hate you,

But that won't ever make it true

Cause even during the good times

When you kissed me,

I didn't want to open my eyes,

Because I didn't want to realize

How hollow our love was,

But now that it's over,

I'm still here, and all I want to know was love.

And I only talk about you in the past tense,

Because through all of this mess,

It's the only thing that makes sense.

And all I do these days is want

But I've settled for wishful thinking

And neglecting, and justifying my emptiness,

Because it's easier to see what you have

When you can see what your neighbor lacks,

I would give an arm and a leg

Just to have my arm and leg back

And I worked so hard to help you find truth,

Just to slowly learn that your silence says

Just as much about your character

As your words do.

We gave our love away.

I always thought that I would be okay.

I never thought I would be okay.

Through this silent note, what constitutes the truth.

Cause I can tell myself

Time and time again,

That I'm not making sense of this

And that cross around your neck

Was more hollow than your head

But I still just wanted to follow you to bed.

I never listened to my own voice,

Maybe some of us embrace death,

But some of us don't have a choice

And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this

But that doesn't mean I'm gonna change

Because I never do, and you never did

And it scared me away

And that's why she still cuts your skin for you,

And that's why that she's still in you, and her name is Acceptance.

And she used to kill me, and now she is killing you.

And through all this stress and carried out disastrous distress

I've learned that I really don't like you,

But I forgive you,

Because I love you.

I love you.