For Katie

they can't be talking to me

this isn't real

how can i stop the nothing?

i'm just a little girl

three thousand miles between most of your friends

and you wish they could meet they have so much in common

and you can't believe that you are in portland

with your good friend from new york on vacation

the world it is shrinking, pathways intertwining

some of it's planning a lot of it's timing

suddenly face to face with jake and jack

you ask them to sing you their songs back to back

jack says "i'm alone but i'm not scared"

then jake says "i am alone but not afraid"

i wish i could be that brave

but the second person's always in the way

i tried to hide you

where no one could find you

but you were a baby and i was a little girl

they caught us and brought us back to their world

that's when i decided the only place i could hide

was in the stories and dreams in the seams of my mind

i was so busy dreaming, running from demons

i didn't even hear you screaming

yesterday you got an email from prague

that said me and my friends think your band really rocks

you can't believe it's all really real

you don't know what to say, you don't know how to feel

you think it's a joke just like in the sixth grade

when nick asked you out then he laffed in your face

you prepare for the worst when you go out on stage

you block out the crowd, you dissociate

the music's your blood and the words are your breath

you sing and you sing like it's all there is left

rock-a-bye baby, beautiful thing

don't ever, ever let them clip your wings

when the best and the worst coexist there's a fist fight

between what's left and the right of way

i hope you believe me when i say

things will get better give it one more day

it's hard to sleep when the lullabys are songs

you don't want to miss you could listen all night long

and you can't believe that you are in texas

and jeff lightning lewis is sitting right next to you

singing the song about the three quarter moon

you squint your eyes and look inside you

and the fractions and fragments all become whole

the music erases the pain in your soul

the tears in your brain that your memory saved

evaporate and skate away