Now I Ask Myself

My mind is wandering in a deep sea

In search for an island to come out of waves

Things that would have become wind

Behind my mainsail are pushing me within

Last night my dreams told me

Something about you and me

Something forthright has to be

Doom's whispers daze me

I don't know what

they are trying to tell me

However the waves don't move me now

I dream about full lips moving all night

Yet the wind doesn't belly my sails

From deep within my soul you still come out

After a long time I still don't want

To let let my true grief come out

I can remember some whispered words

Telling you are not what I really wish

Why is my heart bleeding?

Why is my soul suffering?

Why? If I really don't need you

Now I ask myself

What would truly have grown

When you wished to be with me