Now I Wonder Why

In a moment of triumph, I find defeat uncontrolled

In the second of honor, a despair sharp and old

She gives me a taste, please show me some etiquette

I wasn't looking for you and I don't want to find you yet

At an uncurtained window, in a street full of rooms

Watching the gardens, and pursuing the blooms

This world is so white, they never see me anymore

But I trusted you then, and I'm trusting you still

It's just that I'm not quite sure

Now I wonder why, I thought I could ever lose

But the gain is hardly what I'd choose

Now I wonder why

It was somebody, a woman, it was a delicate crime

And I've been waiting for ages, yes I've been here all the time

There was this greed in my blood, she let me take the easy way

She helps me hide the vagabond, that was myself yesterday

And after the acting, I found that I couldn't sleep

And during my drifting, I found that I was too deep

By the virtue of faith I knew that I could be lost

Beyond this dark place

Unprepared to pay the cost